Saturday evening my water broke. I was only 18 weeks and 3 days pregnant so it was not a good thing at all. We immediatly went to the hospital and they did an u/s to confirm it did break. There was some fluid around our little girl and my cervix wasn't dialated. My dr decided that he would have me admitted and pray that the sac would reseal. Sunday afternoon they did another u/s and there was no change which the dr said was good cause cervix was still not dialating and the fluid wasn't any less. Sunday night though I started having contractions. Monday morning I delievered our little girl Safira Trinity. She lived for three hours but just couldn't breath cause her lungs weren't developed enough. She was a perfect little baby. I thank God so much for the nurses that took care of me and her they were so incredibly nice.  I ended up getting an infection and was put on antibotics and released earlier today.  


I know God has a plan for us and that one day we will have children we get to keep and raise. 

I could say so much more but I just don't have it in me right now. 

I didn't really post anything right after I went to doctor last month cause nothing that interesting happened. Everything looked fine. Doctor had a hard time getting measurements cause it was moving so much. I go back a week from today. I am hoping the gender will be revealed.  I have been feeling some movement on and off the past few days which is exciting.  I really felt some the other night when I got to see one of my CBC teachers in person. I said they must like him as much as I do haha. 

It's kind of been a hard week for me I got some sort of cold while at an Andrew Wommack conference in Orlando last week. The sore throat went a way within a day or two Thank God. I still have a cough that starts making me gag and puke. Today so far I haven't lost any food like I did the past few days. My sinuses seem to be running a lot less too. Poor Curtis has been struggling with the sinus and cough issue for I think weeks now. 

Medicaid to no surprise has given me some issues this time. I get a notice with no other warning first that my coverage has ended. It didn't make sense to me since on the web it showed I wasn't even up for review till May. Well apparently I was told wrong about just having to ask them to upgrade me to pregnancy medicaid again and give proof of pregnancy. I called waited for over 30 minutes to find out I had to completely reapply for medicaid.  I did but it can take up to 45 days to get approved and my doctor visit is next week.  I refuse to stress though the doctor office may just have to bill later.