First I have to say I am impressed with the cheap stage 3 diapers at SAMs. Her overnight diaper was filled with pee and poop with no leakage. None of the name brands we have used held up to that. I know my daughter is in the high percentile for her age. She will be 6 months next Saturday and I love her as she is. Mommy wants her to be tall like her daddy. What I don't get is if clothes are designed for 6-9 months the why do a lot of them seem not long enough for her. They are hard to snap the bottom of the onesie and the neck line seems low. The width is lose so it's not cause she is super fat. Anyways she is holding her bottle a lot more yay! The other day she was sitting on my leg playing with her one bounce toy when she use to it pull herself into the standing position she did it more than once too.

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Most people find this subject as one that shouldn't be talked about but strongly disagree. Having lost an early pregnancy, then Malachi Zeke & Safira Trinity I believe that even though they had short lives they should be remember and celebrated. I love them very dearly and miss them. I know they are having an amazing time with Jesus & my daddy. I don't know why they couldn't have stayed long but I know God never left or forsake me during their loss. He comforted me and gave me the strength to endure. He blessed us with a precious little girl we got to keep and I treasure every moment with her even more cause I know how fragile life is. For everyone that has lost a little one I pray God's peace & comfort over you & rebuke any spirit that tries to take that away from you today.

I was on the back side of our good sized island making us breakfast when Curtis put Abby in her walker on the opposite side of the island. I then went to say you know soon she will be walking that thing back her to see what I am doing. A few minutes later I hear a noise and look who came to visit mommy. She made it backwards (only way she goes so far) around 2 corners to get to mommy. 

I think Abby is missing her daddy. He happen to be in town all last week so I let him put her to bed every night. Well since he is gone this week I put her down a little bit ago where normally she would be asleep by now. So I went to just check on her one more time before I go to bed like normal. Well she wasn't asleep and she went hysterical it took me a while to calm her down to be able to leave the room. The day that Curtis can be home everyday can't get here soon enough.

Just did Abby's measurements for 5 months and I came up with 27" long and a whopping 20lbs! According to the growth charts she still is in the 95+ percentile. But her head is 16.5" which is 25-50 percentile. So she may have a small head like her daddy but just like her daddy, God has blessed her with being super smart. 

God is so good. I was just thinking on how much God has blessed us. Their were times that we didn't know where we would live, didn't have a working vehicle, it almost seem like we would never have kids, but God provides and blesses. Now we have an amazing home, 3 working vehicles, and the most precious daughter! Thank you God for everything!!!! We are living proof that God makes a way, so please don't give up hope if things seem impossible, God can and will make away for His children!

I just feel like I should be very honest about something right now. Curtis & I have been together almost 13 years now, it was just the two of us for so long that honestly even though I knew God put the desire in my heart to have children it freaked me out. We have such an amazing relationship. It's funny how most people at first almost don't believe we have been together for so long because of the way we are together. They think we are in the 'newly wed' stage still. All we are is real. We are who we are there is no faking it. We love each other no matter what. Does that mean we agree on everything, that would be a big fat NO. But that's ok we wouldn't be individuals if we did.

I am not trying to brag here I am trying to make a point. Because we are so good together and it's had been so long of just the two of us, the enemy really tried to use that against me to cause me to have fear while I was pregnant. I worried about what it would do to our relationship having a child. Would we no longer be us? There were times that I was so weak about it and just stressed from the pregnancy that I feared we made the wrong choice, of course it was to late then. I took my strength from the Lord knowing that it would work out though He wouldn't put something on us that we couldn't overcome with Him.

Now I look back and laugh at how dramatic I got at times and how foolish I was to let the fear take over like I did. We are stronger and closer than ever I feel. Our love, God's love flows through us to this precious miracle child that I couldn't imagine not having now. Seeing Curtis with Abby gives me such amazing joy there are just not words to really explain it.

Wondering why I bring this up now? Pastor Shawn was listening to something yesterday and he wanted me to hear a certain part of it but the dvd made him go further back then he wanted to so we had to listen to more than just the one part he planned. I believe that it worked like that because of God. There was a part on the DVD that I feel I needed to hear and then share this. It talked about a couple that didn't want kids cause they couldn't imagine having to share their love with someone else as if it would be limited, or not enough for another. But that isn't how God designed love, love isn't limited, it's abounding, never ending, it can not fail, there is more than enough love for everyone and then some. I encourage anyone that reads this that don't let fear rule your life, because if you do you will miss out on the amazing and very GOOD plans God has for you. Just trust Him, His love for us is more than we can fathom.

God is so good. Abby was so worth the 6 year wait and everything we went through. My advice to anyone that is waiting for an answered prayer, keep the faith no matter what the circumstances are. God's plan for your life is good. If bad things are happening its the devil trying to steal, kill, and destroy what is good. Resist the devil and he must flee from you.

Dr says Abby looks great she now weighs 12lbs 12.5oz so she is over her birth weight. She lost her umbilical so she will be getting her first bath this weekend. She smiled at me for the 1st time today when I was singing to her  Praise God for our bundle of joy!

He gives the childless woman a family, making her a happy mother. Praise the LORD! 

Children are a gift from the LORD; they are a reward from Him. 

Happy Mother's Day! This year is extra special to me cause after 6 years I finally have a precious miracle to hold in my arms. God has blessed me so much!