I heard a song today that said "He gives and takes away" and it bothered me. It makes it sound like God is an "indian giver", or that He causes bad things to happen. First off, Jesus took the curse by suffering and being killed on the cross so that we would have life more abundantly. God never takes a loved one because He needs another angel. Only one comes to steal, kill and destroy and that is satan. God also fully believes in free will. Only time He is going to take something is when you ask Him too! Want Him to take your pain, sickness, addiction and so on? ASK HIM!! He isn't however going to take your job because you didn't give an offering at church. God wants only the best for His children!! 

John 10:10 
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

Matthew 7:11
So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him.

For Mother's Day this year I asked to get an elliptical/exercise bike. I did this because I want to start getting in better health so I can be a better mother, wife & friend. Being at the place I am it's hard for me to be very active with my kids and I hate it. I hate not feeling good. I am going to be blogging my progress to stay motivated and to be held accountable. I will not be going on a diet or taking any diet pills, drinks or etc. I am just going to exercise and start eating a bit healthier. No I am not going to go extreme with it. I will still have soda, junk food, etc at times. Just not as much and I am going to try to make more meals and snacks. I want to try to get to the point that I can make meals kind of from scratch. What I mean is not using preboxed foods. Every 30 days or so I will post a picture of my progress with my measurements. At first I thought yikes but then I said I am who I am I look how I look people don't like it tough, they can just go somewhere else. I only exercised for 10 minutes today for the first time but let me tell you it kicked my butt!!

Day 1 Measurements: Weight 206lbs Waist 47" Bust 54 1/2" Arms 14" Thighs 25"
          Workout: Machine 10 mins Distance 1.1 miles Calories 28 Pulse at end 108

God is so Good!! No matter what you are going through you need to praise Him!! Remember if you are in a storm right now the sunshine is coming!! Some storms last longer than other but in the end the sunshine always comes!! Don't give up hold onto your faith. Jesus is the breakthrough provider!!

I know it's been way to long since I have got to do anything with this site & blog. While I always feel like I have a million things that I have to get done and that this is on the way back burner, I feel like I need to change things. I feel like I should simplify this site and keep it more up to date.  I always felt insignificant and that no one really cared what I did and what happen to me. That's simply not true. God always has and always will care about me. I also have family by blood and choice that care. You never really know how much your life, your story can effect other people. You never really know what is really going on in others lives and how your testimony even if it seems small God can use to help them get through their storm. Because of that, that is why I want to start sharing my life, story, and feelings more.  I plan on sharing things that are laid on my heart be it from the past or the present or even hopes for the future.