Yesterday morning while heading to the car I was looking for my Grey Kitty, yes that is what I called her, because she didn't come when I gave her food. I looked at where our ac unit was because she would come and go under the house right there. Well I saw her back end and tail and knew something was wrong because she didn't lay halfway under the house. Curtis was already at the car, came over and verified what I already knew in my heart that she had died. We don't know exactly what happen he just thinks it was quick. Anyone that knows me knows I think of my animals as part of the family so it hit me pretty hard. Plus already being hormonal from the pregnancy lets just say yesterday was not a very good day for me.

I know it really is unrelated but I couldn't help but think that last year soon after I found out I was pregnant my Nana passed away. Now this year a little bit after finding out I'm pregnant my Grey Kitty passed away. 

I will miss our walks around the yard together. Her running pass me to beat me to the house after walking the driveway to get the mail. Her coming to greet us almost every time we came home. Her scratching on the back door to say she wanted attention or more food. I could go on. I will always remember and love her. 

Just finished 25 laps around the house which is half the 5k in 23 minutes. Not to bad for not doing exercise outside for a bit. Next week I will try to do all 50 laps because the deadline for signup for the blue/grey 5k is Feb 5th and the event is Feb 18th 

Who knows if anyone actually reads this but if anyone does and wonders why I stopped posting my 5k training it's because I haven't been doing so much lately. On January 10th I was up at the church doing stuff, when I was driving to the house to do my 5k training & I really had to pee, out of no where I had this urge that I should take a pregnancy test when I got there.  I had one test there cause I promised that I wouldn't take it unless I really felt God urging me too. The feeling I had in the car was it was God because if it was me I would have done it when I first woke up because that's what everything says is the best time.  I got home took the test didn't have to wait very long before it popped up saying Pregnant. I nearly screamed I was so excited. With shaking hands I quickly took  a picture  with my iPad and messaged it to Curtis who was out of town working.  Him being his normal self was like is that new? I was  like of course it is. As you can see in the picture above I wrote the date on it and resent the picture to prove it was new. He was happy.   

That night I started Charis Bible College Florida at our church Grace City. It's awesome so far. It's hard to believe I'm a college student, when technically I haven't finished high school. I am working on that though. God is so incredible giving me such favor. 

I trained for the 5k the day I found out and I believe the next. I slacked off a bit until I got the ok from my doctor. When I saw him he said exercise was fine. So today I am back to training.  I won't be pushing myself as hard though.

If you know me or have looked at older posts I have written, August of last year we had a miscarriage at 19 1/2 weeks of our precious Malachi. So once I got the positive I immediately made a doctors appointment. It was on the 20th. They did an ultrasound it should an empty sac and measured only 5 weeks instead of the 7 I thought I was. I was a little freaked out but Curtis helped calm me down plus it is possible that I just ovulated late.  I see the doctor February 3rd for another ultrasound to make sure everything is progressing the way it should.  I also had to have a blood test redone, cause when I had my miscarriage it showed I have a protein s deficiency. It's a rare thing and if I did have it I would have to take shots twice a day for the entire pregnancy. But Glory to God I have faith that the test will come back fine and that everything will be perfect at the next ultrasound. I believe in the vision God gave me during my fast last year of us with healthy babies. 

1st 10 min- 12 laps done for the day. Glory to God it was a whole 30 secs faster then any other day I have done so far. 

2nd 10 mins 12 laps done with the same time as the first.

Tomorrow will be challenge day cause I'm trying 15mins

Did a 10 min run with 12 laps around the driveway. That makes 1 of the 7 week training done. I just pray God will give me the continued strength to push forward with my training. 

All my hope is in the Lord cause without Him what am I? Do I have the power or strength to move mountains? Or what about get everything I want? No I don't. Even the people that seem to have everything in the world the flesh would want are not satisfied. Because we were created to have a relationship with God. God would fellowship in the garden of Eden with Adam and Eve and even after they sinned He still wanted that fellowship. But to save them and all future generations He had to remove them from the garden. But just because they weren't in the garden anymore didn't mean He didn't still want a relationship with them. He longed for that relationship. Countless times in His word it says how much He loved for His people and how much He loved for His people to have a relationship and trust in Him. He longed so much for the closeness of the relationship He had with Adam and Eve in the Garden that He sent His only son to die for our sins so that they would no longer interfer with having intimacy with Him. Having a relationship with Him isnt hard just talk to Him, spend time in His Word, and trust Him. We may not get everything we want in life but if you trust in God and get intimate with Him you will get all you need and then some.

My morning 10 mins- 12 laps were a bit rough. My legs are getting very sore. I had to fast walk most of it the jogging was just to much. My time wasn't so bad though for mostly walking. 

My evening 10 mins- 12 laps was a little better than the morning ones. I still had to do more fast walking. 

Halfway though my first week of 5k training. Another 10 mins-12 laps done. I don't think it's getting easier. I thought cold weather would be good but I think its trying to freeze my lungs and all instead. I'm not giving up though. God will give me the strength to stay with it and get better. 

I am going to be posting what I did each day as a record and motivational thing to keep doing. This morning I did 6 round trip laps of the driveway which is the  equivalent  of 12 laps around the house in 10 mins. Then this evening I did 12 laps around the house.   I think part of the driveway seems a little more challenging because it's on an incline. This cold weather sucks a little bit to run in cause the freezing (literary 29 degrees) breeze just cuts through you. I am not going to let it stop me though. Same with this sinus issue and cough, it would be so easy just to quit now but I am determined that this is the year I start being healthier. I will be leaning on God that much more though cause I won't be able to do this alone. 

Started really training for the 5k Feb 18 which gives me about 7 weeks to train.Curtis helped me pick out running shoes yesterday and figured out it will take 50 laps around the house or 25 round trips of the driveway. I went 12 laps in 10mins roughly 3/4 mile around the house today. To get to my goal of doing the 5k in 30 mins I will need to be able to do 17 laps around the house in 10 mins. I know with God's help I can do it!