I just feel like I should be very honest about something right now. Curtis & I have been together almost 13 years now, it was just the two of us for so long that honestly even though I knew God put the desire in my heart to have children it freaked me out. We have such an amazing relationship. It's funny how most people at first almost don't believe we have been together for so long because of the way we are together. They think we are in the 'newly wed' stage still. All we are is real. We are who we are there is no faking it. We love each other no matter what. Does that mean we agree on everything, that would be a big fat NO. But that's ok we wouldn't be individuals if we did.
I am not trying to brag here I am trying to make a point. Because we are so good together and it's had been so long of just the two of us, the enemy really tried to use that against me to cause me to have fear while I was pregnant. I worried about what it would do to our relationship having a child. Would we no longer be us? There were times that I was so weak about it and just stressed from the pregnancy that I feared we made the wrong choice, of course it was to late then. I took my strength from the Lord knowing that it would work out though He wouldn't put something on us that we couldn't overcome with Him.
Now I look back and laugh at how dramatic I got at times and how foolish I was to let the fear take over like I did. We are stronger and closer than ever I feel. Our love, God's love flows through us to this precious miracle child that I couldn't imagine not having now. Seeing Curtis with Abby gives me such amazing joy there are just not words to really explain it.
Wondering why I bring this up now? Pastor Shawn was listening to something yesterday and he wanted me to hear a certain part of it but the dvd made him go further back then he wanted to so we had to listen to more than just the one part he planned. I believe that it worked like that because of God. There was a part on the DVD that I feel I needed to hear and then share this. It talked about a couple that didn't want kids cause they couldn't imagine having to share their love with someone else as if it would be limited, or not enough for another. But that isn't how God designed love, love isn't limited, it's abounding, never ending, it can not fail, there is more than enough love for everyone and then some. I encourage anyone that reads this that don't let fear rule your life, because if you do you will miss out on the amazing and very GOOD plans God has for you. Just trust Him, His love for us is more than we can fathom.
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