Who knows if anyone actually reads this but if anyone does and wonders why I stopped posting my 5k training it's because I haven't been doing so much lately. On January 10th I was up at the church doing stuff, when I was driving to the house to do my 5k training & I really had to pee, out of no where I had this urge that I should take a pregnancy test when I got there. I had one test there cause I promised that I wouldn't take it unless I really felt God urging me too. The feeling I had in the car was it was God because if it was me I would have done it when I first woke up because that's what everything says is the best time. I got home took the test didn't have to wait very long before it popped up saying Pregnant. I nearly screamed I was so excited. With shaking hands I quickly took a picture with my iPad and messaged it to Curtis who was out of town working. Him being his normal self was like is that new? I was like of course it is. As you can see in the picture above I wrote the date on it and resent the picture to prove it was new. He was happy.
That night I started Charis Bible College Florida at our church Grace City. It's awesome so far. It's hard to believe I'm a college student, when technically I haven't finished high school. I am working on that though. God is so incredible giving me such favor. I trained for the 5k the day I found out and I believe the next. I slacked off a bit until I got the ok from my doctor. When I saw him he said exercise was fine. So today I am back to training. I won't be pushing myself as hard though. If you know me or have looked at older posts I have written, August of last year we had a miscarriage at 19 1/2 weeks of our precious Malachi. So once I got the positive I immediately made a doctors appointment. It was on the 20th. They did an ultrasound it should an empty sac and measured only 5 weeks instead of the 7 I thought I was. I was a little freaked out but Curtis helped calm me down plus it is possible that I just ovulated late. I see the doctor February 3rd for another ultrasound to make sure everything is progressing the way it should. I also had to have a blood test redone, cause when I had my miscarriage it showed I have a protein s deficiency. It's a rare thing and if I did have it I would have to take shots twice a day for the entire pregnancy. But Glory to God I have faith that the test will come back fine and that everything will be perfect at the next ultrasound. I believe in the vision God gave me during my fast last year of us with healthy babies.
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1st 10 min- 12 laps done for the day. Glory to God it was a whole 30 secs faster then any other day I have done so far.
2nd 10 mins 12 laps done with the same time as the first. Tomorrow will be challenge day cause I'm trying 15mins Did a 10 min run with 12 laps around the driveway. That makes 1 of the 7 week training done. I just pray God will give me the continued strength to push forward with my training.
My morning 10 mins- 12 laps were a bit rough. My legs are getting very sore. I had to fast walk most of it the jogging was just to much. My time wasn't so bad though for mostly walking. My evening 10 mins- 12 laps was a little better than the morning ones. I still had to do more fast walking. Halfway though my first week of 5k training. Another 10 mins-12 laps done. I don't think it's getting easier. I thought cold weather would be good but I think its trying to freeze my lungs and all instead. I'm not giving up though. God will give me the strength to stay with it and get better.
I am going to be posting what I did each day as a record and motivational thing to keep doing. This morning I did 6 round trip laps of the driveway which is the equivalent of 12 laps around the house in 10 mins. Then this evening I did 12 laps around the house. I think part of the driveway seems a little more challenging because it's on an incline. This cold weather sucks a little bit to run in cause the freezing (literary 29 degrees) breeze just cuts through you. I am not going to let it stop me though. Same with this sinus issue and cough, it would be so easy just to quit now but I am determined that this is the year I start being healthier. I will be leaning on God that much more though cause I won't be able to do this alone.
Started really training for the 5k Feb 18 which gives me about 7 weeks to train.Curtis helped me pick out running shoes yesterday and figured out it will take 50 laps around the house or 25 round trips of the driveway. I went 12 laps in 10mins roughly 3/4 mile around the house today. To get to my goal of doing the 5k in 30 mins I will need to be able to do 17 laps around the house in 10 mins. I know with God's help I can do it!
I know its been almost a month since I started writing this but life has been busy. I have attempted to start this several times but never got very far. Again some parts may be graphic, be warned.
In the ambulance they tried to start an iv 3 times with no luck. During the ride I was a bit numb emotionally. I didn't like the fact that Curtis wasn't with me because they told him to drive our car, so we had a vehicle to leave in. I understood why but they way it went down, where they just started driving off without saying anything to me bugged me. When I arrived at the ER they wouldn't let Curtis come back without my permission, however my parents showed up & they didn't ask if it was okay. I think that is wrong. I love my parents don't get me wrong and appreciate the support but I they won't let my husband back without my permission why didn't they ask if I wanted my parents there. Anyways, I got hooked up to all the monitoring machines which showed my heartbeat at 125+. The nurse had to use a child needle to get an iv in. The admissions person comes back to get my information and insurance. I had Medicaid well because I was no longer pregnant they needed $3. I was like seriously I just lost my child and you are demanding $3 to treat me. I just about completely lost it before God calmed me down. My dad had already gotten out a 5 dollar bill I was fine whatever. The lady wasn't trying to be mean it was just policy that I personally feel should be dealt with during discharge not in the middle of everything. When they did the first examine they made everyone leave the room. I wasn't at all happy they made Curtis leave, every time after that I refused to let him leave. They tried to see if I could push the placenta out but it wouldn't budge. So they went off to figure out what to do. The ultrasound tech came to get me & asked if I could walk. Sure I could walk probably however I had no underwear on and was bleeding. I said I'm not up to walking figuring the most logical thing for them to do would be to take me on the gurney after all isn't that why it has wheels. But no she was like well should I come back later. I was in disbelieve like I'm going to be any better in a few minutes, so I was like I don't think I will be able to in a bit either. Very reluctantly she finally agreed to just take me on the gurney. I had thought the trans-vaginal ultrasound was uncomfortable before this was worse. After a while of just waiting a male gyno/ob doctor(Dr Atta) came in. He was really nice. He said that I didn't do anything wrong that it just happens sometimes. He said they were going have to give me medicine to induce me, so that I would re-dilate for the placenta to come out. I was given 8 pills to put between my gums and cheeks of the mouth. It was horrible I wasn't allowed anything to drink and I was so parched that I didn't have much saliva to dissolve the pills. After a while I started shaking uncontrollably it was unpleasant to say the least but I didn't get any pain medication yet because it wasn't hurting just uncomfortable. As time passed it got worse and more frequent I was having contractions to go with the shaking. I was bleeding quite a bit that it kept puddling up and they would have to change the bed pad and towels they were using to soak it up. Several large clumps came out but not the placenta. They gave me another 8 pills to put in my mouth that already had sore spots from the first 8. I was still not allowed anything to drink. Along with the shaking and contractions my ankles started having their spasms. That was the point that I broke down and asked for pain medication. The first medication they wanted to give me was one that I had a bad reaction to before so I refused it. Well it took them a while longer before offering to give me something else. They injected it into my iv along with some anti nausea medication. I could feel the relief of the spasms and immediately started feeling really tired. It didn't help that it was like 5 or 6 am now. I dosed for a few minutes but when I awoke the nausea one over and I started dry heaving since I didn't have anything in my system. In my personal opinion dry heaving is worse then vomiting. The good thing to come out of that was during one of my dry heaving fits I felt another something large come out. Thank God this time it was the placenta. The nurse said something about getting to be released when I passed it so I was extra happy, however that wasn't the case. Dr Atta came back to say that he was admitting me because he believed the placenta had an infection that passed to me which is why my heartbeat was so high and I had a low grade fever. Again he reassured me that what happen wasn't my fault, the baby looked perfectly healthy and they were going to send the placenta to be tested to try and find out more. It was good to know that I was carrying a healthy baby and it wasn't a genetic defect but it made it that much harder too. I know that God has a reason for everything including this. I also have faith that He will bless my womb to be fruitful. I will type out the hospital stay another day. It's been a little over a month and have thought of writing this a dozen times. What I am about to write may be to graphic/ upsetting for some to read.
At eleven something at night on August 6th, I woke up to use the bathroom and while going something felt wrong. Without any contractions or warnings signs that I noticed at the time, Malachi came out. I didn't see him put felt him. It wasn't even painful. I freaked out and yelled for Curtis and told him I thought I loss the baby. He immediately woke up, turned on the bathroom light and went to get a flashlight to see, since I was still on the toilet. I did a quick glance for my self and saw the umbilical cord and knew I was right. Curtis then did something that now I wish he didn't have to cause it's horrible he had to see our precious little one in the toilet. I was only 19 1/2 weeks along at this point there was no way he could survive his organs were not developed enough. He needed to stay in there at least 4 1/2 more weeks. I stayed on the toilet thinking the placenta would just come out also but it didn't. After around an hour Curtis called 911 and they sent an ambulance. It wasn't long before they showed up. They took my vitals and then clamped and cut the umbilical cord. I was then taken to the hospital in the ambulance. I have much more to say but instead of one super long post I think I will break it up into smaller ones. Not to mention even though I feel the need to write it out, it's still a very emotional for me. I know God is taking care of my angel & there was a reason for all this, which in a later post I will give some theories. I went to the doctor Friday and she decided to not actually do an exam. She doesn't won't to irritate the cervix and possibly make things worse. She said when I get to 24 weeks an exam will be done because at that point they can intervene if necessary. She did let us hear the heartbeat. It's funny every time they find it he moves. I can't help but think it takes after his daddy.
I am still on strict bed rest and will most likely remain so until little Malachi is born. I will admit I am not enjoying it at all. There is so much I would like to be getting done for example the nursery. Malachi's welfare is more important than any thing materialistic. I am keeping all my trust in God that he will stay in the womb till he can come out a healthy baby. |
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